Ok, so what do I really want?
San finally dares to dream again and I really think she will make it coz she’s found a happiness in what she’s dreaming about and according to universal laws she’s the only one standing in her way of achieving this..
But it makes me wonder what I want… What is my dream? I know that 1 1/2 year ago it was becoming a musical-director, and 1 year ago it was opening a café. And when I was younger I wanted to be a jewellerydesigner. I’ve even dreamt about beeing an archeologist and learning a lot about symbols and ancient cultures. I’ve always said that if I was a christian I would have become a priest. So what makes me really happy? What makes me feel alive?
Having new insights, I love the rush. Laying tarot and really help people, it makes me feel meaningful. Laughing with friends and family. Meeting new interesting people and listen to their stories. Beautiful things, especially jewellery. Matching things, I love when things go together and enhance eachothers’ beauty. I love giving compliments to people and make them feel good about themselves. Beautiful people. Exciting people, excited people. Really good music. Or at least music that suits my mood. Flirting! Beeing in love, having butterflies. The day after good sex. Doing something corageous and feel my heart skip a beat, landing so hard in myself that I can feel the ground jumping. Italian trains. Trains in general. Travelling. Cats! Beeing caressed by a faery, feeling tingle in my body. Intimacy. Dressing up and feeling gorgeous. Making people smile. Making people laugh! Dancing. Singing. Painting (all of theese three I have to be in the right mood for, but when I am and I have the right inspiration I love expressing myself theese ways)
So life, whatever I become please give me this. Lots of this!