This too shall pass
They say time is a healer. And that’s the only healer I trust at the moment. I think I need to hear the entire truth. Even though it probably will hurt as hell. My theory at the moment is that he met a girl that night, from where it all changed. He had sex with her with the drunken reason that I will go away eventually anyway and when he realized what he had done he reasoned that being able to do that he probably didn’t feel as strongly for me as he believed before. And if he was falling in love with me, that was what made him fall out of love.. Either way whatever that thing might have been something made him fall out. And realizing that hurts as hell, but it also makes it easier to move on.. My heart still hopes he will fall back in love with me. But if he doesn’t, this feeling will pass too, it does, it always does. Thankfully.
I can feel the healingprocess has begun. And I will have good days and bad days. And eventually time will have done it’s job.