I think I’m blocked
Last saturday I ran into the guy that slept here at my place some month or two ago (the first guy in my new round bed actually:)) He looked at me with velvet eyes and told me that he thought it was a shame we hadn’t spoken much recently. This meeting with him made me realize two things. First of all that I knew exactly how to enchant him and that I really didn’t need that kind of confirmation. And secondly that my heart at the moment is so closed that I don’t even think it would react if the perect guy came along. All the buzz and the fuzz being in love just seems veeery tiresome for me today. My mind would be pleased with some loveaction, flirting, dating, smsing. But my heart, oh my heart is really not up for a match in the love arena. And it probably has a lot to do with the no need of confirmation and the tiredness of human behaviour.
I guess there will be a long time before you here me talking love here again.. And about the rest…. I’m still confused