I’ve noticed he’s not in my dreams anymore. I don’t think about him all that often and when I do my rational self knows he doesn’t deserve my heart. A big part of me doesn’t want him anymore, and I can’t really say if it’s my heart that does want him or if it’s my […]
And so the worst enemy of all when it comes to heartache has finally left me; the hope of his return. And actually after having spoken to him today, I’m quite thankful he kept me out of his messy heart. But it still hurts of course.. It’s the loss that hurts and the failed expectations. […]
I think I’ve finally realized what it is I really want…. Or I’ve always known deep inside, but it has finally surfaced. I want to stay in sweden, I want to open my café and I want Val, San and Jens to help me… Malmö or Stockholm? Well, why not both? All of a sudden […]
I had a dream tonight, and for once it wasn’t as negative as the others, I was talking to some friends about Marco and his fantastic kisses, when Jonas enters the room and sits down besides me to listen to our chatter. I could feel the chemistry between us and he had a friendly face. When I […]
I had a thought right now.. That no matter what it was that happened, no matter what it is he’s feeling, the insights about those feelings and happenings are never sure to be true, they will only be projections from my own mind. Or from what people around me think. I’m not even sure that […]
They say time is a healer. And that’s the only healer I trust at the moment. I think I need to hear the entire truth. Even though it probably will hurt as hell. My theory at the moment is that he met a girl that night, from where it all changed. He had sex with her with the drunken […]
What’s the point of this heartache? Last time, benefits came along with the pain. Crying, feeling, in a strange way felt good. I landed in myself, because the feeling was mine. I got in deeper touch with my intuition. What will I learn from this, what awakening must I go through? Why the hell does […]
They say, listen to your heart. But can I really? Does broken hearts really tell the truth? Because if I would listen to my heart, I would send him messages every night. I would stay up all night long to find out things about him on the internet. I would not try to forget him. […]
Not in the english sense of that meaning.. He pulled the “you will fall in love”-card in the game of life and hid it under the carpet, that’s cheating! I’m not sure that’s what has happened, but I have a feeling… He really liked me some week ago and last week something strange happened. It […]
I hate this time, trying to be smart and flirtatious and funny and get your will through.. I used to love it once, and I was really good at it.. Don’t know what has changed, I think I’m more of a perfectionist theese days, I want the messages to be perfect! I also think I’m more […]
